today...

1. woke up at 1pm. ate 1 banana.
2. went to the gym. worked out for three hours.
3. robert texted. asked me where i was. i asked him why. he told me, "la lang."
4. met era for dinner at McDonald's St. Francis.
5. bought a movie ticket ( Superman Returns @ IMAX) for wednesday next week.
6. stood on a bus going home.
7. robert came by to pick me up. fritz and cathy were inside the car.
8. went to baang coffee to finally try their famous cheesecake. yummy. got introduced to kris.
9. went to robert's place for a drink.
10. went back home at 2:30 am.


they called...
1.beno
2.robert
3.neil
4.era

talked to them online...
1.young
2.jake
3.denis
4.chris


nice.

m e . . .

this shit is bananas

b1 talks to b2 online
b1 and b2 become really good friends
b1 and b2 meet
b1 takes b2 home
b1 and b2 like each other
b1 and b2 talk
b1 and b2 kiss
b1 and b2 agree to see each other exclusively
b2 goes back home
b2 calls and takes back everything it said
b1 and b2 agree to remain friends
b1 is sad
today, b1 is going out with someone else.

e i f f e l

you went to a clothes store looking for that perfect pair of pants. you found it at a local shop. a size 32 stone washed low rise jean. the nice embroidered design on the back pocket makes it all the more cute. you try it on. it's perfect. you get your wallet and see a five hundred peso bill. then you look at the tag. php1,399. shrugging, you went back and placed the pair of jeans in the hanger. you tell yourself that when you have the money, you're going to get back and get it.

you went out of the shop hopeful.

weeks pass. the long wait is over. you remember how good it looked on you. how the soft denim felt against your leg. how tall it made you look. you are smiling. and now that you have the money to make the purchase, you run back to the shop.

and the jeans you were eyeing was not available in your size anymore.

do you know how that feels?



i am feeling that feeling right now.  that miserable, frustrated feeling. and i am not even looking for a pair of jeans.

AKO ITO because it resonates

kung mayroon man akong mamahalin
sino kaya ng pipiliin
yung tahimik o yung malakas ang dating
kahit di handa&ampamp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;lt;bgsound src="http://www.blogupload.com/71626/07_Ako_Ito-Unbound.wma" loop=infinite&ampamp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;gt;
dapat bang pilitin
in real life ano ang dapat gawin
yung isa na malapit sya ang abot kamay
o yung isa na malayo panaginip lang habangbuhay
nagmamadali ba ako
hindi naman siguro, hindi naman
pero bago ang lahat...dapat kilalanin mo muna ang sarili mo
ang tunay mong damdamin bago magmahal ng kahit sino pa man
kilalanin muna ang sarili
alamin mo muna ng mabuti
kilalanin muna
alamin mo muna mahalin mo muna
ang sarili mo
part of your youth
i sympathize you've been through hell
and in that hell i don't think you still wanna dwell
pain is consistentlybitchin' all your life
it's all up to you if above it you will rise
confusionis knocking on your door
you know so well that you can pin him down to the floor
pain turns to hate
and hate's empowered all the more
if you deny yourself to forgive and to soar
years of anger still trying to find an exit
when there's despair
strength comes along with it
but you have to realize
that in this game we call life
you lose if you get even
you win if you break the chain of hate
i and i listen!
i better start forgiving
i better start believing
to believe in me
ako ito na nagbabago
ako ito na natututo
ako ito na binubuo
ang pagkatao ko
kilalanin muna ang sarili
alamin mo muna ng mabuti
kilalanin muna
alamin mo muna
mahalin mo muna
ang sarili mo
kung mayron man akong mamahalin
yun ay AKO



now i just hope someone gets to read these lyrics. i've been listening heavily to this song lately. buti nalang may kopya ako ng 2 week panic ng brownbeat allstars.

what?

what makes you stay
when your world falls apart
what makes you try one more time
when it's not in your heart
at the end of your rope
when you can't find any hope
you still look at him and say
'i just can't walk away'
tell me what makes you stay

eto ang panalo

i was looking for what i wrote in a dedication frame for my goddaughter's christening when i saw this.

i must admit, talo kaming lahat ni miguel dito. hehehe...

have you...

...heard South Border's new song? it's called Reward. i got goosebumps listening to it.

fritz

most of my friends don't know this, but my bestfriend fritz and i go a long way. we met when we were just weaned out of using our diapers. we were classmates since kindergarten. she was crying the whole time during class (which really irritated me) so i put it upon myself to befriend her so she'd stop whining.

we sort of drifted apart during high school when she developed boobs and got the admiration of half the school populace. we became friends again when we went to college and worked as editors for the school paper. now she is married to the brother of my ex(i know it's complicated, but my nahilaw na brother-in-law and i are very good friends now) and they have a beautiful child, keira, my inaanak.

i never get tired of our conversations. sometimes i imagine our talks as part of a scene in an indie film. hehe.

and coffee just tastes better with her around.

paradise. need i say more?

eb time...

boracay, paradise on earth, i'll see you later.

kilala mo ba ang mga ito?

if you are a child of the eighties and the era's new wave music, then you've probably heard of the smiths. there were a lot of good new wave bands back then, like the wild swans and the psychedelic furs, but the smiths, to me, is the greatest new wave act ever. who would ever think of writing songs such as "shoplifters of the world unite" or "girlfriend in a coma"?

i heard that ex smiths frontman morrissey (is it true that he is gay?) has just released a new cd. sana may pambili.

magkano na ba cd ngayon? limang daan na ata dinagdagan pa ng VAT. patay na tayo dyan.


girlfriend in a coma i know
i know
it's serious

girlfriend in a coma i know
i know
it's really serious

there were times that i could have murdered her
but you know
i would hate anything to happen to her

no, i don't want to see her

do you really think
she'll pull through?
do you really think
she'll pull through?
do...

girlfriend in a coma i know
i know it's serious
my, my, my, my, my, my baby, goodbye

there were times when i could have strangled her
but you know i would hate anything
to happen to her

would you please let me see her

do you really think she'll pull through?
do you really think she'll pull through?
do...

let me whisper my last goodbyes
i know

it's serious...