jagged little pills

i'm a supplement freak. it started when i almost fainted two years ago and the doctor's couldn't find anything wrong with me. i did my own research and found these supplements very helpful.

everyday i take:
1. a B complex caplet
2. folic acid
3. selenium
4. vitamin e
5. vitamin c
6. vitamin a&d
7. co-enzyme Q10
8. omega 3
9. dietary fiber supplement
10. a tablespoon of extra virgin coconut oil

when i feel tired and weak i take:
1. vitamin B-12 sublingually or
2. korean ginseng capsules

sometimes, though, it gets really tiring to get one pill from each and every bottle. so i just pop a multivatamin and go.

ill pare

it's hard when you are sick and you live alone.

trust me. i know how it feels.

i've been living independently since college. my mom went to the states and for the first time in our lives, we got separated. i remember crying in my room at the dorm (where i used to live) everytime i experienced a severe asthma attack. my solo flights to the hospital were the dumps for me. i pitied myslef big time during those times.

fast forward to present day.

i've been nursing a slight fever since sunday evening. and although the fever has subsided a couple of days ago, my body pain decided to stick with me up until now. i suspect the pain must come from working out five times a week for the past three months or so. i heard you should only work out three to four times in a week. so the physical abuse must've brought about the body discomfort.

the fever i think should come from my piercing. my brother coerced me to have my ears pierced last saturday. i don't know what possessed me back then but i said yes right away. he was wrong when he thought he'd see me scream in pain when the gun drills a hole in my ear. but now my lobes are swollen red and as big as squid balls.

so here i am, stuck inside my 34 square meter appartment, and bored out of my wits. i've been craving for pad thai and miso soup but i don't have the strength to get dressed and run to the nearest oody's express or teriyaki boy.

i miss having someone to take care of me. i really do.


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ang salaming tridi

even brandon routh will not look good in these glasses.

song lyrics that move

it's only you that makes me free
i'm not used to being loved,
not me.

- free, Simon Webbe


goodbye my lover
goodbye, my friend
you have been the one
you have been the one for me
i'm so hollw, baby, i'm so hollow
i'm so, i'm so, i'm so hollow

- goodbye my lover, James Blunt


i have seen
i have been to places far and deep in my mind
only to find comfort in your strangeness

- comfort in your strangeness, Cynthia Alexander


go
don't worry i'll stay sane
'cause i'm a friend as much as a lover
this patient waiting is good
for the heart and soul

- go, Barbie's Cradle


pause in your busy day
look extra long my way
wink at me across the room
kiss me longer
touch my arm when i am by your side
so i can fly

- fly, Sarah Groves


beyond the things i'm not, there's love inside of me
just love me for all the things i am
love me

- for everything i am, Christian Bautista


when you say you love me
the world goes still, so still inside
when you say you love me
for a moment
there's no one else alive

- when you say you love me, Josh Groban


do you really love me,
or are you just
lonely?
...you're just lonely.

- you love me, Cacai Velasquez


more next time.